Americana confessed that raising her children helped her cope with dysphoria until she felt comfortable talking about her gender identity publicly
Caitlyn Jenner recalled one of the most difficult moments of her life: when she won the gold medal in the decathlon at the 1976 Olympics and thought that with the success of her career as an athlete, she could never make her gender transition.
The star of the reality show ‘Keeping Up with the Kardashians’, who was once married to socialite Kris Jenner, spoke about this fear when she participated in the podcast ‘ The Skinny Confidential Him & Her ‘. She recalled: “Right after the games ended that night, the next day … Yeah. I mean, I did all those things and the next morning I woke up. I was in a hotel room. I went into the bathroom and the medal of gold was there in the sink. I put it around my neck, looked at myself in the mirror – without any piece of clothing -, looked at him, and said: ‘What the hell did I just do? I built this character so much that I am stuck with him for the rest of my life “.
Jenner continued, “‘ [This character] is that big, now that I’m stuck with him? Because there’s a lot more to my story than that.’ And it was kind of depressing. I really had to deal with it in the days that followed.”
The former athlete, then, ended up finding several “distractions of life” between this victory and the moment when she spoke about her gender identity to the world (through the cover story of an edition of Vanity Fair magazine in 2015). For the American, raising her children was one of the experiences that helped her deal with gender dysphoria for years.
“My kids say, ‘Oh my God, does that mean we were just a distraction?’. And I say, ‘No, no, no, no. By far, you were the best part of my life,'” she said, before adding: “I said, ‘But for me, it was a distraction from who I was’.”
Caitlyn has spent many years of her life dealing with transsexuality in secret. “I had my little ways of escaping. I did it completely. I mean, I never exposed myself to anything, I never talked to anyone about it,” he said.
The American has six children from three marriages. With Chrystie Scott, she had Burt and Casey; with actress Lynda Thompson, she had Brandon and Sam Brody; and with Kris Jenner, she had Kylie and Kendall (in this third marriage, she also helped raise Kourtney, Kim, Khloé, and Rob, sons of Kris with attorney Robert Kardashian).